Real form of Upasana 2

In the beginning, for the sake of practice, one should regard himself as a creeper and God as a tree. The creeper embraces the tree and reaches the top. It is also convenient to regard one's self as a flute and god as the Flute Player to enable him to make his life disciplined and inspired. The meditation about a kite flying high up in the air with its controlling thread in the hands of a child is also helpful. I have followed these three types of meditation from time to time and had rich, enthusing and happy experiences. The sacrifice of the moth on the burning lamp; physical, mental and material surrender of the wife to her husband are instances of experiencing complete identification, unity or oneness with God.

In my Upasana, actions, rituals were not of primary significance. It was suffused with emotional zeal, devotion and faith. I strictly followed the discipline of doing prescribed jap. Except for some emergency rarely was there any omission in getting up in the morning at 1 AM and performing the set routine. Deficiency, if any, was made up on the next day and nothing was left in arrears. Even then, I had practiced throughout to maintain an attitude full of emotional zeal during my Upasana. In the beginning the practice of arousing feelings of sacrifice, unity, identity and negation of duality was done in the form of imagination. Later it became a part of nature and ultimately culminated in self-realization.

The power of Gayatri Mata started reflecting in the form of devotion (Sraddha) in casual body, illumination (pragya) in astral body and determination (nistha) in physical body. Strict self-introspection was done from time to time to ensure that this was no mere wishful thinking. I examined and analyzed myself in the light of actual daily events whether or not devotion for leading an idealistic life, for the service of mankind as a whole, had increased and allurement of temptation has been overcome; and found that my feelings had fully matured like those of a Risi-Kalpa Sadhak.

Gayatri Mata manifests as divine energy in feminine form. It took the form of Pragya and dominated the mental arena. I tested on several occasions to ascertain whether in te form of Pragya there was integration of wisdom, responsibility and fearlessness down to the deepest depths of consciousness. I have been experiencing that Gayatri Mata has incarnated in thr form of Pragya in my inner consciousness and my Upasana, meditation and contemplation have all become fruitful. Whether or not our convictions, our ideologies are reflected in our action (karma) attitudes (gunas), and nature (svabhav) is the real test of Upasana.